She is Strong yet Weak

Hi there, I was told by a friend of mine that I quote: "You write good. You write like like yourself. Have you thought of journalism?" Have I thought of journalism??? When I was in first grade I did not pick up the whole reading thing. I missed few keys about reading. It caused me too really struggle all throughout school. In 6th grade I had an opportunity to go to a school called Mountainville Academy. That school showed me the problems that were effected because of my lack of reading. That year I did not really know how to fix them. At the very end of the year I heard of Reading 180 for the middle school I would be attending. In 6th grade I had made promised too myself that I would no longer be the victim. I wanted to get better. I worked my guts out in this class all through 7th and half of 8th grade. In that year and a half I went from a first grade reading level to a average 8th grader. Comprehension was still hard.  I did it though. I promise that story matters: I ...

I have moved away from my home in Alpine. I live in what is called Rexburg Idaho. It is 4 hours and (miles) away. I love Alpine. I love the mountains and the air. I love the water, there is nothing like Alpine water. I am in my bed at Alpine home with the mountains in view. With the smell of pines. I miss my home though in good old Rexburg. I miss my bed. I miss the desk that I walk by. I miss the shower head in my bathroom. What is home; is home where your family is or home where you are. I think home is where the story begins. Home could be anywhere. I call Rexburg home and I call Alpine home. Home is where my family is. Home will always be Alpine. It is where I started, It is where my Mom and Dad taught me everything I need to know to survive on my own. So what is home? I think home is where your heart lies. So can you have multiple homes? I think you can. I think it is ok for me to miss my good little place in Rexburg. I also, think it is ok too miss my home in Alpine and lo...

Ok can I go off topic for just a sec. At the beginning of the year I was tired of not being in shape and not being able to play rugby like I wanted to. So I did a few things to change it. First I signed up for cross fit. I went every tuesday and thursday. I went to coaches house and did the things he asked me too. I ate healthier. It was not an easy thing. I actually at times wanted to give up and say "It is doing nothing." But now that rugby season is over All star starts. At the beginning of last year I would have never even imaged that I could even make it through try-outs let alone make the team. I told my mom I just wanted to try-out because you know what it was an option that  I could make it through try-out day. Today I found out that it worked. I made the ALL STAR TEAM. I know that if you put your heart in it you can do hard things. I can't believe it! I am in shock. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU PUT YOUR HEART TOO. Don't let your mind take you over. Listen to your ...

Dear Abrianna, Or should I say Abi what do you really go bye???? Your mom and Dad named you Abrianna??? Why are you not taking risks? You are living so carefully. Why? It is ok not to love. You will have time for all that. Right now be ok with yourself and being a lone wolf. Go to a movie alone. You won't be able to for very long. Enjoy. YOU GOT THIS!!!!! Love, Your heart Dear Heart,  I want to go by Abrianna trust me I do. It just hard to switch when everyone at the school knows me my Abi. It will change when I go to college. I promise. With the other things I am trying. I am getting closer. Love, Abrianna P.S. Can you be a little more softer. It is ok to cry when your hurt. Dear Abrianna,  I have to stay hard it keeps you and me both safe.  Love,  From your heart HEART, Here is the thing with doing that you get so hurt. You keep it all inside and then you BLOW UP . We can't do that . It is not fair to are family and the people that ...

I don't really know how to say this. I wanted to do a video, but I never had time. Nelson I hope you don't think I am a waste of time. Or someone that does not care. See i told this blog things that I don't tell. I am ready to tell you who I am but you guys don't care. I write for myself. Because I know I won't get comments from this. You guys only post on the good ones. I guess I am not one of the good ones. But really I am not here to bash on you, if you are reading this. See if you knew me you would know that I don't care what you all think of me. I use to care. Why, would I care if i have a family that loves me so much. I would do anything for my family. If you really knew me you would know…  I love my family. I am happy more than I am sad. I am a mormon. I love everyone. I don't hate anyone. BUT... You might know me as the girl that tried out for student council for 4 years.  Or the girl that does not care anymore...

Dear Neighbor, I Am Sorry For Putting A Hole In Your Fence And Running Away. And Never Telling You. Dear Boy In My Ward, I Have Had A Crush On You. Ever since You Moved In. I Miss  The Night Games We Use ToO Do Together.  Hey There You, Sorry I Said The Wrong Name. I Do Know It. I Do It To Everyone. Ask Anyone. To All That Have To Listen,  I Am Sorry That I Say  Sorry To Much.  See Here Is The Thing I Have Done Allot Of Stupid mistakes.  I Don't Really Know Where I Am Going With This. I am Not Going To say Sorry Because I Just Said Sorry For That. ThIs Scares Me It Does not Ever Come out As I Plan. Whatever I hope You Like It.  I Am Not Writing This For You Though.  So Don't Think That.