She is Strong yet Weak

I don't really know how to say this. I wanted to do a video, but I never had time. Nelson I hope you don't think I am a waste of time. Or someone that does not care. See i told this blog things that I don't tell. I am ready to tell you who I am but you guys don't care. I write for myself. Because I know I won't get comments from this. You guys only post on the good ones. I guess I am not one of the good ones. But really I am not here to bash on you, if you are reading this. See if you knew me you would know that I don't care what you all think of me. I use to care. Why, would I care if i have a family that loves me so much. I would do anything for my family. If you really knew me you would know…  I love my family. I am happy more than I am sad. I am a mormon. I love everyone. I don't hate anyone. BUT... You might know me as the girl that tried out for student council for 4 years.  Or the girl that does not care anymore...

Dear Neighbor, I Am Sorry For Putting A Hole In Your Fence And Running Away. And Never Telling You. Dear Boy In My Ward, I Have Had A Crush On You. Ever since You Moved In. I Miss  The Night Games We Use ToO Do Together.  Hey There You, Sorry I Said The Wrong Name. I Do Know It. I Do It To Everyone. Ask Anyone. To All That Have To Listen,  I Am Sorry That I Say  Sorry To Much.  See Here Is The Thing I Have Done Allot Of Stupid mistakes.  I Don't Really Know Where I Am Going With This. I am Not Going To say Sorry Because I Just Said Sorry For That. ThIs Scares Me It Does not Ever Come out As I Plan. Whatever I hope You Like It.  I Am Not Writing This For You Though.  So Don't Think That. 

 I Fear Things To Hide From Reality.              I Don't Want To Tell You All My Fears.                           I Have Been Told It Is A Sign Of Weakness.                                            Is It?  I Could Not Think So. I Am No Better Than You. I Have Fears!! I Don't Want To Tell You My Fears. Because I Fear You Will Find out Who I Am Behind This Cover. How Long Can I Stay Hidden?  I Don't want you To Know My Deepest Fears. One Thing I Fear Is That I Well Never Know What The Difference BetweeN The Too'S Are. I Do Fear.    I D o Fear. I Do Fear. That Is All The Fear You Are Getting To See.